Logos "Hilarleo"

A Catholic succession kinda thing...

This 'Leo' has nothing of the stars;
my parentage is not Pagan, astrologer or pantheist
but sheltered under the controlling psychic power of bloody Euro-paternalism.
(#1) The name HILARLEO is a homophone pun

"H i l a r i o" is near enough
Latin rooted name "Cheerful, happy"

My nom de lettre hilarleo to some suggests
a crute romantic item {Hillary + Leo}
but consider a contraction of two Papal lineages.

(#1) The name "H i l a r i o" is near uncommon enough
to assert it unique in many 'American' situations
yet it's the most common form of the 'light-hearted' Latin name Hilarius,
as Saint makes an even rarer religious patron
as life endangered by Levity in American lives.

But Pope Hilarius comes later
he's successor and the protegé of Pater
(lineage #2) St. Leo the Great.

Among murderous popes
the Leos rank alone in numerical order for mendacity-
from the first, #1-'The Saint'- -
hallow the way to #13 ... a snake-
worst of Leos in a lineage of un-christ-like livez.

This is the star I've foundered on.

Golden Black, a handsome son

in his civils lights gone

Pope St. Leo I, 'The Great'

Physically favoring this image of the latter man-

a small pustule off Golem

on an over-educated arrogance of Napol-Leon;

caucasoid, a skinny-ass- /b u t t

privileged, with an operatic gravitas

&proud 2complete my own Pope's

overly Heavy Metal wardrobz.

With pike and skull-crusts -

on ermine-rat great-coats,

all crown'd of a flaming stage-brazier,

stoked with gas.

Oh Lord, ye-e-es.

Once upon a better time there were many Leos on earth;
these were mostly machine languages [1],
and produced so many acronyms [2]
it poisoned punning in silly play-words for generations.

Pet Leos suffer in modern times too, in captivity, at home in zoos; c.f. word-Leo_the_Lion_%28MGM%29,
Some are trapped for their fluffs and exhibited simply to tease:
[3] or [4] ).))
Others can remind the humans of their true place.

My own first owners named me after lucky #13, deed 1903
He left them bereaved of dull authoritarian leaders of proto-Nazis
until the real swell of Hitler's Pope came along.

If I suggest my sires' politics lay in a tragically hard and sheltered past
ashamed for any kids present
let me offer another evidence, their utter failure to name me Pius.
Wouldn't that have been better, the height of grace and an urbane fashion
(But lately... Buddhist buddies have been after me to change... )

but I's fated to founder as Leo;
thus my earliest recollections are lonesome.
Desperation and depression were forged from my captors.
A lot of caged abuse. As a kit I wished only for an early end.
My modest most literal dream was to wish me an orphaned human.

for himself my father had feared the same.
spending years around WWI in sunny California,
bounced as a burden from patriarchal to matriarchal relations.
Gramamma's family made no contributions once the birth led to mother-death;
American parenting led one isolate angry family fine to support the next war.

pater spent his adult life raising seven kids,
intensely trying and failing to mold his authoritarian patriarchic
Roman-Catholic cell of denial.
Only after hundreds of hours of therapy with gifted teachers am I enabled
to honor my inner child wish-
freed of inherited mendacity & mangled marginality .
Today I only wish I'd been strong enough to break
out earlier in life, but my freak had to sneak up on me.

Both my Proud papal lineages are allegedly boldly bloody;
I am working at becoming free
but the Holy Roman beast mangles away at lives
from over a thousand years of sway.
still I live fully if not particar'ly wise.
Others nearby suffered worse than I.
These I recognize
as well as deny
"Salud, diablos!"
Popes of past catholics prizing the eyes from the pie