User:ElisaEXPLOSiON/poem

any advice would be lovely.

As I sit,

I think of you;
Feeling guilty for giving you
My heart.
Days of loneliness,
Days of sorrow,
Days of sadness
That led to heartache and pain,
In which I think I may never recover;
Feeling ever so pitiful.
I can’t help myself, though.
I just can’t seem to get over you.
I utterly hate you,
And yet I’m hopelessly infatuated with you.
I feel like darkness, trapped in the brightness of light,
With nowhere to hide but in itself.
A place where there is no admittance,
Fear and loathing seems to feel
Like home.
Am I not worth it?
Worth you taking admiration of me?
It hurts,
The thought of you in the arms of another.
Did you do it in spite,
Just to make me hurt?
Sometimes I think I might end my time here,
But then,
Back to reality I come,
And back to darkness I return.
If only you knew,
My wicked mind is even too much for me at times.
Only I understand,
Only I know my heart,
And only I know that it was you.
It was you,
The one who broke me.
And it will be you
To know how it feels,
To be stuck here in my world,
With no fucking way out.
Wanting to be somewhere else,
But not being able to move.
Wanting to feel just the smallest amount of happiness,
And only feeling unwanted.
Wanting to be the only one,
And feeling like the only one left out.
And in the end,
It will be me who saves your soul.