I have now retired from Wikipedia. I have had severe Depression for two years and made multiple suicide attempts. Since I started editing Wikipedia, I have been dealing with strong suicidal feelings. I have no doubt whatsoever that Wikipedia has excaserbated these feelings. I have both professional and non-professional support for this in real life, but I feel I can no longer be an editor on a Wikipedia.
Wikipedia is a tough place. And I am an inately fragile person. As a fragile person, I must keep myself safe from situations where I could be harmed. If you're reading this and thinking "she should toughten up", think of it like this: a glass vase won't turn into a metal vase if you drop it and kick it. It will simply break. As such, if I spend any more time on Wikipedia, I won't become a tougher person. I will simply end up killing myself. It is not safe for me to spend even a single minute longer in this dangerous environment. If I were to continue, there is a very real possibility that I could find myself being the next User:Lucia Black or User talk:Cumulus Clouds. I am not posting this message just to be melodramatic or to be high-maintenance. I am simply informing Wikipedia that I am leaving and why.
